Too omghe darya, jayi ke hich kas joz man o to nist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to amightarin ghesmate daryaye eshgh ke nafase man nafase tost va nafase to zendegiye man!

Too oje asemoon boodam, oonjayi ke faghat to boodi o man  o khoda shahede eshghemoon!!!!!

delam mikhast zendegim hamoonja tamoom mishod, ke dige nakham az oon lahze joda sham. ke vojoodam too asemoon bemooneh, ke harfat o harfamoon too zehnam, too khateram ke na, too zendegim bemooneh.

barf hame ja ro poshoonde bood, boland shodam, bi tavajoh be hich chiz, kotam o pooshidam o raftam biroon. mamanam ba tajob porsid"Koja ba in ajale?" " daram miram ke too vojoodam sabtesh konam. in o goftam vali nemidoonam shenid ya na! raftam biroon.

hameye kooche az ebteda ta enteha sefid bood, kooche aroos shode bood! be to fekr mikardam o faghat be to. be sedat ke chejoori too vojoodam khoone kard, be ghole to" ki midoonest?" " ki khabar dasht?" " ke az ayandash khabar dare?"  nemidoonam, kash midoonestam. poridam " mage bazi kardan bade?" porsidam" naghshet chi mikhay bashe?" gofty" mikham yare bazigar basham!

Naboodam kardi.....................

Hameye harfat o doone be dooneh be yad ovordam ,  havasam o ke jam kardam, be akhare kooche reside boodam. bargashtam o be poshte saram negah kardam, jaye pahaye koochakam rooye barfe sefid ja andakhte bood. ba khodam fekr kardam " Momkene jaye paye man ham toooye ghalbe sefid o pake to bemooneh?"

Goftim misporim be khoda! Are.  yek ja khoondam ke" haman behtar ke raze ma dar pech peche mahramaneye roozegar napeida bemanad"

Ba boodanet, Ba atre sedat, garmiyi ke ba mohabatet be ghalbam bakhshidi, chejoori mitoonam???????????? na nemitoonam, ba ghateiyat migam ke nemitoonam. mikham ke bashi kenaram. hala ba har naghshi!!!!!!!!!!! mikhay bazikon bash, mikhay yare bazikon!

(Dec, 6th 2002)

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Vaghty didamet, vaghty ba atre sedat, ba garmiye ghalbet , ba mehrabooniye negahet ashena shodam , shayad begy ahmaghanast vali hameye vojoodam shoro be seda zadanat kardan!

Nemidoonam chi gofty? chikar kardi? ke delam injoori gereftaret shod? midoonestan chi mikhay! vali inghadar khodkhah o ashegh boodam ke nemikhastam hich joori az dastet bedam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

har rooz o har saniye , mehri ke be delam az to oftade bood, bishtar o bishtar mishod! vali ajab ke midoonestam in nadoonam kariye man, khodam ro misoozooneh! midoonestam vaghty be gholleye kooh miresam bayad biyam payin! va man che zood  be ghole residam, Vay bar  man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are, midoonam khodkhahi kardam. midoonam , mano bebakhsh.

Akhe nemikhastam beri! har cheghadar khastam jeloye khodam o begiram va ba bazi  edame bedam nashod! bavar kon adame khodkhahi nistam vali in avalin bari bood ke mididan kasi o mikham va nemitoonam az dastesh bedam! vali khob...................

khoshhalam ke ke oonghadar ghodrat dashtam ke nazaram bikhodi omidvar shi. khoshhalam ke nazashtam aziyat shi. khoshhalam ke rafty! khoshhalam ke oonghadar mifahmi ke rafty!!!!!!!

baraye man sakhte, az goftanesh harasi nadaram,  hala ke rafty, har rooz, jaye khalit ro ehsas mikonam! midoonam ke kare aghelaneyi kardam, har chand sakhttttttttttttttttttttt.!?

har chand geryeham ham nemitoonan in rooza aroomam konan vali eshkali nadare. faghat inke midoonam ooni ke mikhay ro peida mikoni! ooni ke entezaresh ro dari. ooni ke asemoone delesh mesle asemoone dele to saf o abi bashe. na mesle man , abri o barooni.

kasi ke mesle khodet too sedash por az sedaghat o paki bashe va to ro baraye khodet bekhad.

Baraye Akharin bar va Baraye Akharin Jomle: Barat Arezooye Behtarinha Ra Daram.................................

Khoda negahdar

(S.A , Nov 21, 2002)

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Engar hamin dirooz bood

khorshid az balaye kooh soorate talayish o be man neshoon dad o

mah ghahr karde o geryoon

soorate mahtabgoonash o penhan sakht.

Engar hamin dirooz bood ke labkhande to ba oon cheshmaye

khab aloodet

hamchin too delam nofooz kard ke nagoo o napors!

hame chiz ba yek labkhand o yek salam aghaz shod.

yek salame sade vali por az mana o mafhoom, por az harf o por az

Arezoo baraye ayandeyi ke nemididimesh.

saniye bad o saniyehaye badi ham be donbale oon salam oomadan.

saniye ha migozasht o man o to nemifahmidim ke chetori dare roozha o mahha migzare,

Ma nemifahmidim ke khialy chizaye mohemtary hast joz khabe atr agine shaghayegh ya

zemzemeye vasvase angize aghaghi.

hala dige dire ke befahmim too zendegy khaily chizaye mohemtare digeyi hast baraye fekr kardan va

kahily harfaye digeyi hast baraye zadan be jaye inke faghat az Arezooha harf zad.

Arezoo khoobe, vali hamin arezoo bood ke nagozasht man o to motevajeh beshim ke aftab ham yek mogheyi ghoroob khahad kard va dobare mahtab dar khahad amad va

nagozasht befahmim ke sotoonaye mabad, door az ham khoshand o payedar, inke

befahmim yek chiz o khastan o yek chiz o arezoo kardan, kare dorosty nist

Are nafahmidim ke bayad che joori zendegy konim ke hala bayad az ham joda shim.

hame chi ba yek salam shoroo shod o hala ham hame chiz ba yek khodahafezi tamoom mishe.

yek salame por mana o mafhoom vali yek khodahafeziye khoshk o khali o tanha, va injast ke adma bayad ghadre vaghteshoon o bedoonan, injast

ke migan arezoo kardan ham andazeyi dare!

Bas kon ta key mikhay arezoohaye bozorg dashte bashi, vagty hanooz be koochooloohash naresidi.!???

Hame chiz o kharab kardi, man o sade engashty! momkene ke man harf zadane parvaneh ba gol o bavar dashte basham vali oonghadr ha ke to fekr mikardi.........! na! dige na.

shayad avalesh sakht o tarik bashe o ghamgin o por gerye.

vali bedoon ke in kar o mikonam ke be khodam ejaze nadaam joore digeyi dar moredet fekr konam.! delam mikhad hamooni ke boodi bemooni, mohem nist ke chi khahi shod.

(October,15th 2002)