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     Hafiz****

At the break of dawn from sorrows I was saved
In the dark night of the Soul, drank the elixir I craved.

Ecstatic, my soul was radiant, bright,
Sanctified cup of my life, drunk I behaved.

O, what exalted sunrise, what glorious night
That holy night, to the New Life was enslaved.

From now on, in the mirror, O what a sight
The mirror, glory of my soul, proclaimed and raved.

Wonder not if I am bathed in hearts delight
I deserved and was given, though may have seemed depraved.

Angelic voice brought news of my God-given right
My patience is the fruit of hardships that I braved.

Sweet nectar drips from my lips, as my words take their flight
Beloved, my sweetheart, upon my soul patiently had engraved.

T was Hafiz, divinely inspired that I attained such height
It was Gods mercy that times sorrows for me waived.

(translated by,    Shahriar Shahriari )   
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                      LOVE......................

Driving in the highway

thinking of you

my love slip over my heart

i'm glad you are not here

you cann't see my tears coming down

you cann't see my eyes turn into red

you cann't see me. running away

frome YOU

i crawl among the cars

trying to hide myself

hide my love

all those recollections are coming to my mind

i wanna leave them as an inheritance

for YOU

dono't molest me

let me be

let me cry for you

when you lie

when you tell me

you are diying

let me cry

for YOU

i want you swell with pride

for MY love.

you horrify me

being with you is easy

wanting you  is easy

loving you ..................................don't even try!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

leave your hostility away

try to love me

the way i am

try to accept me with my words

try to love ME.

(sara15b)

June 12, 2003      20:37:25
                
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                    Something Something is Wrong

I know something is wrong

Something is just WRONG
My destiny

I feel like Im stumbling in my path

I feel like Im a failure

I couldnt stop you

You were crying in front of me

You covered your face with both of your hands

Hiding your tears

Your Pride.

Im not cruel, Im not, believe me. Oh well, its up to you.

What was I talking about? Oh yeah!

About my destiny

What about it?

I dont give a shit! (Excuse my language

Why people do not believe that there is a reason to be

Why do they think that we have to live the reality?

There is a big reason for living

Its just not the food you eat

Not the clothes you wear

But the people you love,

The people you care about

The love you give

And the love you get from other people

Am I bullshitting?

I guess!

Never mind, forget about all I said. O.K?

I always nag

And Im tired of it

Why should I be worry about you?

The you that never realized me..

Never

See! I complained again, isnt that annoying?

Oh well, have fun and bye.

( sara15b 2003)

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                I WANNA..................???????
i wanna confess
i chose the wrong way for my life
i forgot all the good things i had
i forgot all the valuable friends
i forgot the reason
i forgot that there is a reason to be
i forgot that there is a heart to beat
beat for people
i forgot that there is a pair of eyes to observe
observe the beauty
i forgot that there is a mouth to talk
talk the beliefs
i forgot that there is a life
a life to live
i forgot that there is a love
to love the people
i forgot that there is someone
someone to care
i forgot that people's heart is not always in the same place
it might be in their brain
in their hands
in their eyes
in their words
where is mine though?
i chose the wrong way
i'm sorry if i hurt you
sorry if i let you get so close to me
sorry if i let you in
my heart loves you
loves the way you talk
the way you speak highly about me
the way you made me feel so much better
the way you make me forget about  my fears
i know i love you
and i hate saying that
we are all living in reality
no matter how much i love you
this life would not let us be together
i heard that one day sun fell in love with moon
he tried and tried to have a date with her
it was like moon didn't want to meet him
whenever sun comes up
moon goes down
sun was crying
oh, my God, why cant we meet? why doesn't she want to see me? know me better?
God laughed and replied: if it was this easy, world would be so boring. at least, you always have a reason to come up and wait for her to come again.
well, at least you know now, that
there are too many people out there waiting for you
this can be your reason to live
wait for someone who can give you the love you want
this will give you faith
to know that there are people out there who care about you
i know what i did
i know my mistake
i'm ashamed
ashamed of what i did
ashamed of being so wrong
no matter how many times i say " sorry"
you will be still mad at me. " i know".!
i chose a wrong way
i let people get close to me
i let them cry on my shoulders
i make funny faces when they are blue
make them happy
in my ways though!
i talk to them, when they really don't wanna hear anything
i annoy them when they are mad!
i jump up and down when they have a headache
i shout
when they are quiet
i kiss when they are least expecting it
i hug
when they are watching  TV
i collapse when they are on the phone talking to me
i laugh
when they are so seriouse
i cry
no, i dont cry, anyway!
i talk
when i shouldn't talk
and i shut up
when i really need to talk!
well
i told you i chose a wrong way!
oh well, "TOO LATE".
at least i know something
i know that we are all responsible for every single minute in our life,
the way we spend our time.
we are all moving step by step
all together
i get older
you die!
and then i will die right after you coz i cann't handle being without someone annoying like you
and you will laugh at me
bottom line!
again, i heard somewhere, " being easy is easy, but stay easy it not easy"! how philosophical!
i ve been wondering about this sentence, i couldn't figure it out!
no honey, i'm not dum! it like i have too many things in my mind, i'm so complicated. can't you get it?
you know! whenever i start writing, i make myself promise, not to talk too much, coz i know at the end i have to apologize again! man i hate apologizying!
well, but i always revoke my promiss
did i talk too much really?
hmm.
ok, then i guess i need to go
i'm a little tired, its around 3 a.m! no wonder why i'm tired.
according to what my friend says: i should shut up.
have a good night......................
(sara15b) 2:53 AM 7/9/2003
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Have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago?
Another place, another time, a friendship of the souls?
Two people who share a bond for reasons neither know,
A feeling that they were friends, a long, long time ago?
Did they stumble onto each other by pure circumstance,
Or was it fate and destiny that played a certain hand?
Two souls intertwined, they are worlds apart,
But the soul, it knows no difference, in matters of the heart.
Somehow they are drawn together, fate has brought them back,
Each living worlds apart, they journey separate paths.
When this life is over, and a new life begins,
Their souls will find each other, two souls that we call friends.
 
(Lia Fail )
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BE............

Tired, Tired of this tedium around me.

Tired of not having someone who cares.

Tired of being useless, Tired of not having a life to live.

Tired of this big and huge grudge in my throat.

Tired of people around me.

Tired of their binary behaviors.

Tired of people who you can only see the kindness flower in their empty hands not in their hearts.

Tired

Tired of everyone and everything.

Tired of writing, Tired of all these words that nobody ever understood.

Tired of all these vain sentences,

Like a river that its taking its rise into the sea

They dont have anywhere to go and no one would believe them.

Tired of this time, this moment,

Tired of present and past

Tired of the way I have ahead of me

Tired of people words

Oh, Yes. I am Tired.

Tired of all those days that I spent without you

Nobody is here

Nobody to go to

Nobody who calm me.Yes, Nobody

Tired of this sky always bluerainy

Tired of happiness

Tired of all those laughs, all those jokes

The laughs that always tried to make people happy but nobody knows

Nobody knows what is going on behind all these laughs.

Tired. Tired of everything that grows into a habit

Tired of people who say they are friends,

But they dont have a heart.

Tired, tired of this pen that writes.

Tired of these ups and downs

Tired of this world and its people

Tired, Tired of this distance between us

Tired of avoiding

Avoiding myself.

Tired of this unkindness

Tired of my beliefs, my ideas and myself.

Tired of my books, my life and my goals.

Isnt it funny?

Finally Im tired. I wanna sleep, dream, and dream about you.

Can we just be? Can we just pretend that we are alive?

Can we just

(Sara.A 19 May 2003)

 

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from The House of Night

1
Trembling I write my dream, and recollect
A fearful vision at the midnight hour;
So late, Death o'er me spread his sable wings,
Painted with fancies of malignant power!
...

3
Let others draw from smiling skies their theme,
And tell of climes that boast unfading light,
I draw a darker scene, replete with gloom,
I sing the horrors of the House of Night.

4
Stranger, believe the truth experience tells,
Poetic dreams are of a finer cast
Than those which o'er the sober brain diffused,
Are but a repetition of some action past.

5
Fancy, I own thy powerwhen sunk in sleep
Thou play'st thy wild delusive part so well
You lift me into immortality,
Depict new heavens, or draw the scenes of hell.

6
By some sad means, when Reason holds no sway,
Lonely I roved at midnight o'er a plain
Where murmuring streams and mingling rivers flow,
Far to their springs, or seek the sea again.

7
Sweet vernal May! though then thy woods in bloom
Flourished, yet nought of this could Fancy see,
No wild pinks blessed the meads, no green the fields,
And naked seemed to stand each lifeless tree. . . .
Philip Freneau (17521832)
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He called me today.......
tired, full of anger and full of tear
What could i do?
DAMNNNNNNNN
nothing
i couldn't even help him
release him
tell him
i care about you!
i do, and i really mean it
He didn't say a word
He didn't even complained
He said he is OK
Yeah, right! just OK
and who knows what OK means?
" Deal with it"
Somebody said and i don't know who!
mikham bedam hameye rah haye donya roaz roo zamin bardaran.
Then we don't need to travel
We don't need to struggle
We don't need to walk!
Am i so boring? yes, maybe
People say i am not, some say i am funny, some say i am too serious and some say i am damn boring.
Oh, well, let them think like that! i am who i am. and that is me.
You said you needed someone. right! Did you?
Why you didn't ask for? true, you don't need to tell, people should know.right? Ok, so how would i know that you need my help, when you don't even tell me what the hell is going on when i call you?!
Survive
It's your life not mine.
I can help, i cannot live for you. You are you and i am me. What is wrong with it? nothing. You crazy trash. You don't even know what does this word mean? "Friend". Go and die, with fear and all the bad things in the world. I am not talking to you, It's me talking to myself. I am gone, it's been too long. can't do anything for it.  You wanna help me? in rah o in jadeh.! Go ahead. help me then. I need your help, but only if you don't want to make fun of me. You know what i mean?Complicated? Yes. It should not be easy, because some people like YOU, don't want to think. I make you think. I do. And this is the best part. Go find the answer, BY YOURSELF. This is me. This is how i can help. Hamoon ghadri ke az dastam bar miyad.
Do i talk a lot? Did you get  whatever i wrote? If you did,well good for you and if you didn't, don't worry about it, because i don't know what i wrote either.!!!!!
(Sara. A 13 April, 2003)
 
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            The little Blue Love Bird
Is this really what i was looking for?
Full of dark and madness?
I feel like a dead love bird,
Tired and sick of these little cages
Surrounding me.
More anger,
More annoyance
You left
I did too
We promised
We both agreed
Sense of belonging
All together hurt me
I feel down
Can i come back?
Is there any way to keep the love bird alive?
Oh, my god
Is there any choice? i doubt it.
Screaming in the street,
Little boy lost his mom
Doesn't appreciate it.
All these pressures
On a little blue love bird!
Other side of the street
His mom yelling at him
They now are together
How about the little blue love bird?
Lost her love in the crowd of darkness.
 
(Sara.A 31 March 2003)
 
 
 
The Moving Finger writes, and, having writ,
Moves on: nor all thy pietry nor wit
Shall lure it back to cancel half a line,
Nor all thy Tears wash out a word of it.
( Khayyam, pesian poet)

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Life in a Love

Escape me?
Never
Beloved!
While I am I, and you are you,
   So long as the world contains us both,
   Me the loving and you the loth,
While the one eludes, must the other pursue.
My life is a fault at last, I fear:
It seems too much like a fate, indeed!
Though I do my best I shall scarce succeed.
But what if I fail of my purpose here? 
It is but to keep the nerves at strain,
To dry one's eyes and laugh at a fall,
And baffled, get up to begin again,
So the chase takes up one's life, that's all.
While, look but once from your farthest bound,
At me so deep in the dust and dark,
No sooner the old hope drops to ground
Than a new one, straight to the selfsame mark,
I shape me
Ever
Removed!
 
(Robert Browning )

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I love you for what you are, but i love you yet more for what you are going to be.
I love you  not so much for your realities, as for your ideas. I pray for your desires that they may be great, rather than for your satisfactions, which may be so hazardously little.
You are going forward toward something great.
I am on the way with you,
and therefore I Love You.
                                 
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Everything should be as simple as possible, but no simpler!
(Albert Einstein)
                                  
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Merry Christmas
 
I wish u all a Very Very Happy Christmas
 
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I direct my efforts to my real priorities.
I avoid tasks that seem urgent but are not important.
Each day i recommit myself to my goals.
Everything I need comes to me.
I trust my intuition.
I believe in myself and my capacity to achieve great things.
I am transforming old and limiting beliefs.
I see problems as opportunities that i can take advantage of.
I control my thoughts, and they create my success.
I appreciate my achievements and build on them.
I rise above my limitations.
I let go of the past with ease,
I focus on what's possible.
I am a natural winner.
I relish doing a good job.
I have good health and high energy.
I am always at the right place at the right time.
My confidence remains strong no matter what happens.
( i don't know if you belive in these or no, but try to repeat some of them with ourselves, so that way we can see how strong we are!)
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To be born
On the dark spear
Like the open birth of a wound.
 
To travel the unique exodous of  opportunity
    Throughout
     In chains
to burn on one's flame
to the very last spark
on the flame of a reverence
found by the slaves
    Thus
thus res and coquettish
to bloom on the thorn-bush of blood
and thus tall and proud
to pass through the scourge-field of degradation
and to travel through to the extreme of hatred........
 
Oh, who am I speaking of?
The living with no reason, we are
conscious to reason of their death,they.
 
(by: Ahmad Shamloo)
(translated by: ahmad Karimi-Hakkak)
 
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